Adult

I would have gotten you a card
but I cant find one for my apology
I don't know how I can apologize
for being the first to grow up

I enjoyed the time we spent
and I wish it had lasted
and I still cant understand
why it didn't last.

I don't know why we're not driving around
Hootin and hollarin at men that we cant get
acting like we're 16 year olds
Oh wait... we are 16.

We are 16, our minds are beyond
the only difference
between me and you is
that my life just grew up with my mind

your still stuck in school
doing the high school thing
and I'm working everyday,
to protect this name that I was given

Adult. yes, that name. I'm protecting it
I don't know what happened
to make us grow apart
or if we ever really did
I should have been there for your birthday
And you should have been there for my death.
The death of my childhood.
Did it ever even begin?
I'm sorry we grew up, my love,
but cant you grow up with me?
Your not just a childhood friend,
you're one who was always there to mend
the hurt, pain, even the enduring death,
the death of my love.
The death of my love for the world,
for the hate in it, and for the obstacles.
I love you for that,
But where are you now?
Are you in school?
Or are you staying a shining memory in my
long lost childhood days?

~Nicole Lexus

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